mark of the beast
Aug. 3rd, 2004 02:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hafitalSo, when I checked my email this morning I had 666 unread messages. Eeep! Doesn't help that I'm currently writing a scene with Ahriman in it. *looks suspiciously around for red fog* :) It quickly surpassed that number, however, so phew!
And can we just reflect for a moment on the fact that I have *600+* unread emails sitting in my account? Can we say avoidance? I swear I read maybe 2, sometimes 3 emails a day. And I'm not subbed to that many lists, and I'm no mail on several of them already. I used to go through and either skim or delete on a regular basis, but since yahoo upped the MB allotment I've totally let that slide. (for various reasons, most of them completely irrational, this is preferable to me than unsubbing or going no mail all together. I think I have abandonment issues. I can just see the therapist session where we talk about my email issues. LOL)
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I made an appointment today to go down to speak to a director of the graduate program I'm interested in. I was very proud of myself for doing this, since I'd been slacking off re: graduate school since moving back home. So, my appointment is at 1pm and I make arrangements with work and scheduled a long lunch and I get in my car and brave the hazards of downtown to go. I make it more or less on time, and I was even more proud of myself for a) finding parking and b)finding the damn building, and I go up to the office and... No one was there. Somehow something got miscommunicated or they had to cancel and couldn't get in touch with me or... something. I dunno. They haven't called me back yet, and I left several messages. And I know they knew I was coming because someone had called me late last week to change it from Monday to Tuesday.
I'm more frustrated than angry. It could easily be my fault (but I don't think so). And of course, although it's not really that big an effort, I have to go through all of that all over again. argh.
And can we just reflect for a moment on the fact that I have *600+* unread emails sitting in my account? Can we say avoidance? I swear I read maybe 2, sometimes 3 emails a day. And I'm not subbed to that many lists, and I'm no mail on several of them already. I used to go through and either skim or delete on a regular basis, but since yahoo upped the MB allotment I've totally let that slide. (for various reasons, most of them completely irrational, this is preferable to me than unsubbing or going no mail all together. I think I have abandonment issues. I can just see the therapist session where we talk about my email issues. LOL)
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I made an appointment today to go down to speak to a director of the graduate program I'm interested in. I was very proud of myself for doing this, since I'd been slacking off re: graduate school since moving back home. So, my appointment is at 1pm and I make arrangements with work and scheduled a long lunch and I get in my car and brave the hazards of downtown to go. I make it more or less on time, and I was even more proud of myself for a) finding parking and b)finding the damn building, and I go up to the office and... No one was there. Somehow something got miscommunicated or they had to cancel and couldn't get in touch with me or... something. I dunno. They haven't called me back yet, and I left several messages. And I know they knew I was coming because someone had called me late last week to change it from Monday to Tuesday.
I'm more frustrated than angry. It could easily be my fault (but I don't think so). And of course, although it's not really that big an effort, I have to go through all of that all over again. argh.
