get me off this crazy thing

Hahaha. Omg, that subject line is naughty. But I mean double fisting in the "holding two drinks at once" meaning. Not the other, ahem, meaning. *snerk*

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I am rewriting my book and it is pretty much sucking all my life force. Just so you know.

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In theory, I will *somehow* write my story for hl_chronicles, but it will be quick and dirty. Sometimes quick and dirty really works out well, though, so here's hoping!

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I finished seasons 1 through 3 of Fringe. It was fun! Although I did not like season 3 as much as I loved seasons 1 and 2. ( cutting just in case )

I am looking forward to season 4. I can only assume things get more complicated.

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Double fisting is in reference to the fact that I felt the need to hold myself back from gobbling up Star Trek: Voyager episodes all in one sitting, due to wanting to have this rewatch last as long as possible, that I started watching Star Trek: The Next Generation at the same time, to alleviate the need to watch star trek episodes. haha.

So, it's Star Trek double fisting. So to speak. A distinction I feel must elevate the reference somewhat. lol.

Things I am learning in this most recent rewatch of such treasured shows:

1. Still stupid in love with Chakotay and Tom Paris. Not necessarily together. I'm good with them apart and with others. Although, in canon, every little scene between the two of them is SOLID GOLD. I love their in canon relationship to stupid little bits. In fanfiction, it's a lot more difficult. I had forgotten just how wackadoo C/P fanfiction was. It's like one big rapefest for this pairing, and that's annoying not to mention disturbing, and rife with out of character/character bashing/ female hate. But for the few wonderful C/P fics, it's definitely a pairing that has me recoiling from a lot of the fiction. Which, whatever, it's like almost 20 years old now, so what's the use of complaining? There was excellent fiction written, so that will have to do.

2. In previous viewings of this show, I always had mixed feelings about B'Elanna Torres, but I find this time I really love her. Go figure. I think it was how in conflict she always was with herself, I don't think I was ever really able to sympathize. And wasn't particularly willing to read it in fan fiction. But it doesn't bother me now.

3. Still love Janeway in all her bad ass, glory. I think my favorite Janeway episodes so far are the two part "Year of Hell" episodes. I haven't started the episodes where she really starts to kind of go off the rails and I'm looking forward to them. So far (through season 4) she's awesome.

4. Similar to my new found love of B'Elanna, I had in previous years never liked William Riker much, but I don't know you guys, this time he makes me smile and laugh in just about every episode!

5. Data is quite possible king of the universe.

6. Picard is dead sexy. This is a universal truth.

7. Voyager (and Star Trek in general) wasn't very good in depicting romantic relationships. They're not always that great with friendships, either. They set up relationships wonderfully, but then kind of drop the ball and expect a few scenes here and there to be enough development. This doesn't really bother me, to be truthful, it's not why I watch Star Trek, or why people watched Star Trek, but it is something that's interesting to note.

8. Since Seven of Nine has come on board, I have been watching every scene with Chakotay and her, and I gotta say, that pairing has some interesting dynamics, especially if you consider that neither of the actors were probably aware that the writers would create a romance for them randomly in the last few episodes.

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I have a 20 year high school reunion today. sigh.

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We've had 2 ponies die in as many weeks. One from colic, the other from laminitis. :(

dsudis writes, So I was adding some new interests to my LJ profile (because I, uh... have some new interests. Yes.) and found myself feeling defensive every time I typed a female name, thinking, basically, FUCK YOU, SHE'S AWESOME, because I felt as if someone somewhere was going to be criticizing my love for them.

So, anyway, then I made a list of women who make me want to say FUCK YOU, SHE'S AWESOME. They are far from the only women who are awesome, or the only women people need to be told to step off of, but they are the top ten I feel that way about, right now, off the top of my head.

If you want to argue with me about the awesomeness of any of these women, I am afraid I will simply be referring you to the subject line. THAT IS ALL.


1. Rose Tyler, Martha Jones, Donna Noble, Astrid Peth, Sarah Jane Smith (Doctor Who)

I would list all of the Doctor's female companions, just on principal, even those I have yet to meet.

2. Tyra Collette, Lyla Garrity, Julie Taylor (Friday Night Lights)

All of the women on FNL are awesome, but I love these three in particular.

3. Jane Bennet, Fanny Price, Emma Woodhouse (Jane Austen)

Jane is routinely slagged against for being so sweet and good, and so is Fanny for being weak or too pius or something. Whatever, I love them both. And I love Emma, period. *g*

4. Gwen Cooper, Toshiko Sato (Torchwood)

I have *huge* issues with TW the series, but I really like these two women, and it feels great to be able to say that.

5. Britney Spears, Lindsey Lohan

I hope and pray that both these women rise above their circumstances.

6. Anne Lindsey, Tessa Noel, Amanda Darrieux

Say what you will about Duncan MacLeod but he has a string of awesome girlfriends. *g*

7. Elizbeth Swann Turner (Pirates of the Caribbean)

I love Elizabeth Swann more than I can say.

8. Captain Kathryn Janeway (Star Trek: Voyager)

I never could understand why people dislike Janeway. I certainly don't share the sentiment.

9. Lana Lang (Smallville)

I stopped watching Smallville ages ago, but I always loved Lana.

10. JK Rowling

I deeply respect JKR as a woman and a fellow writer and I always get a little twitchy when I see criticism against her (as apposed to crit against her writing).

ETA: and one more...

11. Hermione Granger, Ginny Weasley, Lavander Brown, Cho Chang, the Patel sisters, Luna Lovegood, Tonks

I've been thinking. About a lot of things, so let's pick one, shall we? Strong female characters. Where are they and why aren't there more of them? What do I mean by "strong" anyway? I had more thinky thoughts about it, and then my work day got in the way. So annoying.

In my opinion, "strong" should encompass both "positive" and "negative" traits. I'm putting quotes around them, since I would rather not make a judgment on what any one person views as either positive or negative -- that's rather subjective. I love flawed characters, be they female or male, and think that sometimes a character's flaws are what makes that character strong. Currently, I've been focusing more and more on female characters, particularly with my original writing, and find that the more flawed they are, the more I love them. I find I want them to be spectacularly flawed.

Also, I feel the need to make a point, which is, I'm not interested in judging. That is, on judging a (female) character's actions as being right, or correct, or wrong, faulty, absurd, outrageous, exactly right, stupid, detrimental, hurting, or whatever. They could very well be those things, but I'm more interested in what those actions *say* about a character, rather than judging that character for being right or wrong. I'm trying to get at what defines a, in this case female, character as being that character, if that makes any sense.

(also, as an aside, neither am I interested in criticizing the writing behind these characters or the tv shows/movies/books. We can complain all day long about TPTB, or the writers of tv/movies/books, but, at the end of the day, we are not the one's driving the car, here, and what's on the screen or on the page is what we have to play with. Complaining about it, pointing it out, doesn't change it, imo.)

Anyway, I don't really have much of a point other than listing some female characters that I find fascinating, as much for their awesomeness as for their what might be viewed as their flaws.

( female characters that I love: )

It's been nearly two weeks since I posted last, and feels like months, actually. School started up again yesterday. blerg. I'm alive. Writing. Broke 50,000 words, so yay. :D

The meme from my last post interests me, and, as an exercise, I'm going to do it for a few more fandoms. just 'cause. Highlander, Lost, and Wiseguy are already covered.

The questions:

01. The first character I first fell in love with
02. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now
03. The character everyone else loves that I don't
04. The character I love that everyone else hates
05. The character I used to love but don't any longer
06. The character I would shag anytime
07. The character I'd want to be like
08. The character I'd slap
09. A pairing that I love
10. A pairing that I despise

( Jane Austen )

( Star Trek )

( Battlestar Galactica )

( Pirates of the Caribbean )

( Friday Night Lights )

( 24 )

( Miracles )

( Harry Potter )

( Ocean's 11 )

+ Name your top six TV shows right now, before reading the questions.



1. 24
2. Highlander
3. Star Trek: Voyager
4. Battlestar Galactica 2003
5. Rome
6. Alias

( memeity: 15 questions. )

Marginally more awake, and doing some Star Trek style procrastination. Ah Saturdays, how I love you.

( Engage! )

Well, that was properly time consuming, and quite the trip down memory lane in regards to Star Trek: The Original Series.

Character meme snatched from my f-list.

BEFORE CLICKING THE CUT, pick 12 characters and assign them numbers 1 through 12. Write it down. Then answer the questions.

1. Duncan MacLeod
2. Methos
3. Tom Paris
4. Chakotay
5. Matthew McCormick
6. Fitzwilliam Darcy
7. James Bond
8. Sam Anders
9. Felix Gaeta
10. Starbuck
11. Roger Lococco
12. Tim Riggins

(interesting that Starbuck gets to be the random girl in the mix. hm.)

( I should be working on my Yuletide story!!! What am I thinking!?! )

I haven't watched BSG yet, so I guess whatever I have to say about that will have to wait - I'm sure you all will be waiting with bated breath for my comments, which I can assure you will be just as astounding as previous.


( Heroes: )

( Friday Night Lights: )

( Lost: )

( The Nine: )

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In other news, I caved and created a new netflix profile solely for Star Trek and added all Star Trek series' (including Enterprise, which more for curiosity sake than anything else), in chronological order. Sans TOS and sans movies, that comes to 169 dvds in the queue. Yowsa. I may add the TNG movies, although I can't bear to watch Generations, so not that one. I'm not sure I'm actually going to watch all these, but some of TNG and DS9 and Voy were already on my regular netflix queue and there's so many of them, I thought it better they just had their own queue all together. If I could afford to buy them, I would, but at $100 a pop, no way. (damn you, paramount. you suck)

Interestingly enough, I didn't add TOS on purpose. That show, I can't watch on demand, as much as I love it and love Kirk and Spock. I like to watch it when I come across it on TV - I saw the second Mudd episode the other day late at night and I was beside myself with a sudden overwhelming love - it was like finding an old friend again, for just a brief meeting on the street - but I'm not sure I can have it around, undiluted, for such a long stretch. Tres strange, but whatcha gonna do.

Anyway, this is all by way of saying that, like clockwork, I'm wallowing in Star Trek love, which happens recurring-like, every so often. Relapsing/remitting Star Trek obsession. LOL. I found Memory Alpha, Star Trek Wiki, and also Memory Beta, Wiki Star Trek non-canon. Awesome! Geeks, gotta love 'em. :D Poking around on these websites made me realize that I really should watch DS9, which I never watched when it was on the air. And somehow that morphed into needing to watch the whole franchise. *facepalm*

Because killabeez asked, and her wish is my command. :) Of course, most of the stories I do write would not have been on this list unless I had already started writing it. Meaning, the stories I end up writing usually are not the stories I think about writing. Do Not Lay Heavy On My Heart is a great example of this. This story was not hanging around in my head waiting for me to get to - but it got written before any of the story ideas I have here. This is likely to happen again. So, go figure, really. *shrug*

Also, right now, other concerns take precedence over writing fan fiction and television in general and it's a little bit hard for me to commit to writing long, plotty fic, so shorter, quick fics might come to light as they come before any of these. That's just the way of it. I hope I do get to write everything here, but I can't say that I definitely will.

( this way to self-indulgence )

wow. That's a lot more than I thought. *bigeyes*

So, at work I had to deal with a certifiable crazy person and it's kinda put me off my game. I'm all out of sorts! I'm this far away from being threatened. meep.

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I've given up on TV this semester. I have not watched one live TV program besides Project Runway (Michael! EEE!) since long time now. Thank GOD BSG is repeated like a million times (which is also the blessing of Project Runway), and if worse comes to worse I can download it from iTunes (I do not know the mysteries of these torrents you all speak of). Lost will also be a challenge, but I'm gonna try. I keep missing Family Guy and this makes me annoyed - Family Guy is the best show on TV.

But, really, my love for live TV has pretty much vanished. I don't know why, although my split attention with grad school probably has something to do with it, but I'm not in the least bit excited about anything. And not only that, I'm just not *into* TV - in the sit down and watch because it's primetime kind of way. I think I miss Alias. In fact, I know I miss Alias. It was comfort food, and never disappointing to me. Lost might pick me up again, but it's really such a fraught show, it's not like Alias. It's not pretty crack - it's wacked crack. If 24 were on, I'd probably be good with that (which is like cracked crack), but that's not till January or something.

Despite this, I am watching stuff, making a valiant effort to go through my Netflix DVDs with some constant regularity. I'm still rediscovering ST:Voyager, which continues to make me loveydovey. It's that comfort food I'm missing. I've watched some good movies, too, which maybe I'll make a post about sometime.

sigh. *dives back into work*